Dear Hugh, So many years ago at this time I had a secret, I was watching my son Scotty graduate in 2003 and what a lovely night it was. I was extra happy in all the pictures because I knew that you and I would go quietly to my church and marry with NO fanfare!!! … Continue reading Zephyr… A Soft Gentle Breeze
Category: Dear Hugh
Love notes to the love of my life. Hear me from Heaven, Hugh!
My Anniversary Gift!!!!
"What I call the depth of generosity is when people are very fond of giving away what they need most themselves." ~ Oscar Wilde Let me first start by being so on top of the world over the moon honest..... I am freaking to the freak out!!! I mean I am almost embarrassed to tell … Continue reading My Anniversary Gift!!!!
Dear Hugh, All the pretty flowers
Honey, it is past impossible for me to believe that this time last year we were planning to go to the International Flower and Garden Festival You always loved flowers, actually all kinds of plants and you knew all the names, not the common names but the long, proper and fancy hard to say names. … Continue reading Dear Hugh, All the pretty flowers
As the Moon rises!!! My heart falls.
Dear Hugh, I have really felt like I am scoring high marks on this grief journey as if there is such a scoring system. Turns out that is not the case. Tonight as the full moon peeked over the trees, the majesty and the enormity and the heaviness...... the heavy weight of your absence hit … Continue reading As the Moon rises!!! My heart falls.
Dear Hugh… You get a front row seat!!
Dear Hugh, One of my sweet friends who owns a magazine came to see me today and talked to me about writing an article on grief. You remember that magazine that wrote the sweet article about you and I raising our sweet babies? As we were speaking I could see that she knew of grief … Continue reading Dear Hugh… You get a front row seat!!
Dear Hugh…. still the messiest cook EVER!!!!!!!!!!
"The experience of loss does not have to leave us with the memory of a painful event that stands alone, like a towering monument that dominates the landscape of our lives. Loss can also leave us with the memory of a wonderful story. It can function as a catalyst that pushes us in a new direction, like a … Continue reading Dear Hugh…. still the messiest cook EVER!!!!!!!!!!
Unexpected gifts… growing in love.
I can just see Hugh Smith smiling so big and so proud of me!!!!! I have never had a human love me so fully and completely and without reservation. The adoration is something that can never go away. It is a permanent imprint of love that has left a mark, a beautiful mark. It … Continue reading Unexpected gifts… growing in love.
Dear Hugh…. Dear Hugh
Hey honey, I guess you and the big guy know that I am turning 60 tomorrow!!!! You heard me 60 big ones, as in getting closer to that senior citizen discount I teased you about. They are surely going to ask me if I want the extra discount at TJ MAX and such. You know … Continue reading Dear Hugh…. Dear Hugh
Option B, Facing Adversity, Building Resilience, and Finding Joy
"Loss, grief, and disappointment are profoundly personal. We all have unique circumstances and reactions to them. Still, the kindness and bravery of those who shared their experiences helped pull me through mine. Some who opened their hearts and are my closest friends. Others are total stranger who offered wisdom and advice publicly ---sometimes even books with horrible titles. And Adam, … Continue reading Option B, Facing Adversity, Building Resilience, and Finding Joy
All of it or None of it!!!
I happened upon a note today that Hugh wrote me around 2007 and as we were deep cleaning the office I found more mementos and treasures. I unearthed the book that we had made when we were in Mexico, one of our FAVE places and FAVE vacations EVER. It was one of those cheesy books when … Continue reading All of it or None of it!!!