Dear Happy Asses,
Can I take a moment to be proud that I am staying on track in getting these out to you? I am proud of myself as this is something I really wanted to be consistent with just like my podcast of over 4.5 years. So Today I am taking a moment to be thankful and instead of bashing me for all the things I don’t do, I am focusing on those I do and this is big for me.
I must admit lots of self doubt was swimming and swirling in my head last night because I knew that I was meeting Ashley at my house at 10 to do my very first taping of my long form podcast!!!!!!!!!! There is something a little more scary about this one for me because it lacks the spontaneity of my other short form podcast. I got up each day and acted like I was sharing thoughts and ideas that have shaped my life with friends. It was quick and easy and if I messed Up I could blame it on the fact that it was live and off the cuff and yadda yadda yadda. And if I did mess up I just did not rewatch that one and hoped the other better ones would take the place of the not so great ones.
Yes all these things can take over my brain if I let them but thankfully I go back to my belief that what I think about I bring about!!! I also started to get excited about what we are about to do together. I am believing that I will find the inspiration and the energy as needed to produce a podcast of value for myself and for others. And just like that my energy shifted to delight and wonder and total enthusiasm of what I am about to do with the help of all you faithful happy asses!!!
I remembered something I heard on Jon Acuff’s podcast when he said, “If you can worry then you can wonder.” I can say to myself, what if it works out what would that look like? I am also excited that I am doing my first taping on a Monday as I have already established that my mantra and my soundtrack for Mondays is that they are magical and the beginning of new and amazing things for me. You will never ever hear me fuss about a Monday!!!!!
Just as I dreamed as a little girl that I would one day stand before others and tell them how wonderful they are and how much wonder there is in this life!!! I am dreaming of a future of happy asses changing the world because of the words we speak and the examples we set of love and forgiveness for others. I am so excited and not nervous at all because in my heart I believe that the little girl who dreamed at 6 is now the woman at 65 so very thankful that I am able to do it!!! I am blessed beyond measure and I hope that I can convince you that you have a big beautiful life to live and I want to live it with you.
Loving you so very big that I can not contain it so I won’t!!!
Karen key Smith
